Thaum peb sawv, peb paub tias peb tau saib xyuas, thiab txij lub caij no peb pib maj. Peb hnav khaub ncaws sai, thaum haus kas fes, thiab khiav tawm ntawm lub tsev, thiab khiav ceev ceev. Kuv muaj ntau txoj haujlwm ua ntawm haujlwm, yog li peb maj nrawm ua txhua yam, thaum sijhawm suam peb tau nce mus kom tiav rau peb qhov chaw ua haujlwm, thiab thaum peb pib ua haujlwm, peb maj nrawm mus tsev, thiab tom qab hnub ua haujlwm hnub, peb mus tsev. Thaum mus txog tsev, peb maj nrawm mus ua txhua yam hauv tsev, kom tag kis sawv ntxov xyuam xim pib rush ua hauj lwm. Thiab yog li ntawd tsis ntev tas los no, peb maj mam txij thaum yug los.
Peb maj maj kom loj hlob, thaum muaj hnub nyoog peb rau hauv peb daim di ncauj nrog niam niam daim di ncauj thiab muab tso rau saum nws siab. Thaum muaj hnub nyoog kaum tsib peb pib kawm txog kev sib deev, thiab muaj hnub nyoog nees nkaum peb twb muaj ib tug me nyuam nyob hauv peb txhais tes. Ntau lub tsev neeg tau tsim nyob rau hauv lub davhlau, thiab tom qab ntawd lawv tau tsim yog tias tus tub yuav coj tuaj thiab tsis ntshai ntawm cov luag num. Thiab tom qab, paub tias nws tsis sib haum nrog tus khub, ib tug ntawm peb tau khiav tawm, tawm ntawm txhua yam, nrog rau tus me nyuam, thiab cov tsev neeg tsis tiav. Qhov teeb meem tseem ceeb yog qhov uas peb maj nroos loj hlob tuaj. "Tsev neeg tsis muaj txhij txhua thiab nws cov teeb meem loj" yog qhov yuav tham txog hauv tsab xov xwm no.
Hnub no hauv peb lub teb chaws qhov teeb meem ntawm ib tsev neeg tsis tiav yog qhov tseeb. Hauv txhua tsev neeg thib ob, ib tug me nyuam yug los yog coj los ntawm ib tug niam txiv. Muaj ntau tsev neeg, nrog rau kuv, thiab kuv xav tias kuv lub neej yav tom ntej puas tos kuv cov me nyuam thiab? Tiam sis kuv tsis pom kuv tus txiv thiab leej txiv ntawm kuv cov me nyuam ntawm kuv. Nws zoo nkaus li qhov teebmeem kev sib raug zoo nkag mus rau hauv peb lub neej thiab hloov mus ua ib tus qauv. Thiab vim tias qhov teeb meem no yog ib feem ntawm lub neej hauv lub neej, nws txhais tau hais tias qhov no yog ib qho teeb meem, tej zaum nws ceases yog ib qho teeb meem rau peb lub zej zog, vim hais tias txawv deviations los ntawm cov qib nyob rau hauv ntau theem ntawm peb lub neej kev yog tas mus li, tom qab uas cov deviations tsim kev cai tshiab.
Muaj ntau tus phooj ywg thiab cov phooj ywg uas txhawb nqa cov me nyuam nyob ib leeg, lawv ntseeg tias lawv tsis xav tau ib tus txiv, thiab lawv tus me nyuam tsis xav tau leej txiv. Lawv sib cav hais tias tus txiv yog ib tus neeg tsis muaj zog uas ua rau tus neeg tsis muaj zog nyob hauv lub couch thiab saib TV thaum nws tab tom pub nws tus me nyuam ib sab tes thiab lwm tus ua mov noj rau qhov chaw ze ntawm lub qhov cub. Tej zaum, nws yog ib qho tseem ceeb kom pib ib tsev neeg tsawg tsawg thaum muaj hnub nyoog laus zog, thiab tsis nyob rau hauv 18-20 xyoo. Tej zaum tom qab ua me ntsis lawm, peb yuav ua lub luag hauj lwm me ntsis kom tsis txhob tso peb tus menyuam tseg, thiab tiv thaiv kom tsis txhob muaj kev ploj tuag, thaum lub siab yuav pib tsim txom tus me nyuam thiab poj niam.
Kuv tus phooj ywg yog phooj ywg nrog ib tug txiv leej tub, lawv taug kev, tham, tab sis tsis hnia los khawm. Nkawd yog phooj ywg xwb. Nws zoo siab nrog rau qhov kev phooj ywg no, vim tsis muaj kev sib raug zoo ntawm ib tug txiv neej thiab ib tug poj niam zoo li no, txhua leej txhua tus cav, leej twg tsis tub nkeeg hais li ntawd. Kev phoojywg yog ib txoj kev hlub, lawv tau tham txog, thiab smacking, thiab hu ua, feem ntau, tsis sib haum. Lub sijhawm ntawd peb ob leeg ntseeg kev sib raug zoo ntawm ib tug txiv neej thiab ib tug poj niam, thiab tau xav ua pov thawj rau peb tus kheej nrog rau cov neeg uas peb nyiam tsis yog ib tug phooj ywg, tab sis raws li cov ntxhais. Peb tau ruam thiab quab yuam, thaum peb tau hais tias tsis muaj kev phooj kev ywg, peb sim nrhiav nws, tab sis raws li koj paub, muaj kev phooj ywg los xaus, thiab nyob rau hauv peb lub sijhawm kawg ntawm kev phooj ywg tuaj yeem sai thiab sai dua. Tej zaum peb tsis nco qab ua li cas thiaj ua tau phooj ywg? Thiab tsis pom dab tsi ntxiv tshaj koj lub qhov ntswg? Yog li ntawd, lawv txoj kev phoojywg tuaj txog thaum lub Cuaj Hlis 7.
Hnub no yog kuv tus phooj ywg hnub yug. Nws tau 20 xyoo. Jubilee, uas txhais tau hais tias qhua, phooj ywg, kwv tij, khoom plig, npas, paj, kev luag thiab kev tso dag. Pab kev zoo siab thiab kev xav tau dej ntws hauv qhov dej, feem ntau, ib qho lom zem thiab nws yog nws tus Cawm Seej. Thiab ua li cas nws tshwm sim hais tias lawv koom pw uake. Kev sib daj sib deev yeej tshwm sim raws li ib yam dab tsi thiaj li tsis npaj txhij. Koj xav hais tias koj yuav tsis ua li no nrog ib tug neeg, tab sis nws yog muaj, thiab nws yog tom qab cov kev xav tias dab tsi tshwm sim tau tshwm sim. Thaj nyob rau hauv ib tug haum ntawm mob siab rau thiab kev hlub, tov nrog ntau cawv thiab hookah, ob tug tsis nco qab txog lub neej ntawm pov tseg. Zoo li peb txiv neej ib nrab, tom qab hmo ntuj ntawm kev hlub nws tau ploj lawm. Nws tsis hu xov tooj thiab sau ntawv, thiab pib tsis quav ntsej nws. Hmo ntawd lawv cov phooj ywg tau tuag. Kev sib deev yeej ib txwm tua ib tug phoojywg, vim hais tias lawv tsis muaj peev xwm nyob ua ke nrog kev sib raug zoo ntawm ob tug neeg. Tom qab ob peb lub lis piam, peb pom tias nws xeeb tub. Lub sijhawm tsis ntev, thiab ib yam yuav ua tau, tab sis nws tsis kam, txiav txim siab muab yug. Nws tau yug los rau ib tug ntxhais zoo nkauj, noj qab nyob zoo, zoo nkauj, leej twg, zoo li ob tee, zoo li nws niam.
Peb yeej sib txuas lus, tshwj xeeb tshaj yog thaum nws tsis txhawj txog peb. Los ntawm lus xaiv thiab tham, tus txiv pom tias nws tus hluas nkauj xeeb tub. Nws txiav txim siab los nrog nws tham, Kuv tseem tsis to taub qhov nws xav tau los ntawm qhov kev sib tham no, thiab qhov tseem ceeb tshaj plaws, nws muab txhua yam kom nws tau ua txhaum, thiab tom qab cov neeg ua txhaum tawm tsam, hais tias nws yuav tsis nyob ze rau nws approached. Nws zoo li nws insulted nws los ntawm qhov tseeb tias nws cov phev fertilized nws qe. Nws tsis thov dab tsi ntawm nws, txawm tias nws tus kheej thiab hais li ntawd, tab sis thaum pib nws hais rau nws tias nws tsis yog yuav tsum paub txog leej txiv.
Dab tsi ua rau tib neeg mob siab ua hauj lwm? Thiab peb puas tso nws tseg? Kuv nug cov lus nug no. Tus qauv tseem ceeb yog tso tseg cov poj niam cev xeeb tub, thiab cov me nyuam yug tshiab. Kev koom nrog kev sib daj sib dee tsis yog kev tiv thaiv, tiag tiag peb cov txiv neej khiav lag luam los yog ua haujlwm ntawm "tej zaum cov neeg ua haujlwm"? Yog, Kuv pom zoo nrog qhov tseeb tias cov txiv neej thiab cov poj niam yog cov txhaum rau qhov no, tab sis ua siab zoo, tsis txhob tso koj tau ua dab tsi. Kuv tus hluas nkauj tsis tso tus me nyuam, nws txiav txim siab muab yug, tab sis nws tsis kam lees paub tus me nyuam. Nws tsis thov dab tsi ntawm nws, nws tsis txawm qhia nws tias nws tau xeeb tub. Nws tus kheej kawm ntawm tib neeg tias nws tau xeeb tub. Thiab vim li ntawd, nws kuj ua rau nws ua txhaum, tso tseg tus menyuam. Ntawm no, qhov teeb meem yog tsis nyob rau hauv tag nrho cov vim hais tias nws concealed ib tug cev xeeb tub los ntawm nws. Ntawm no yog lub ntsiab lus tseem ceeb yog tias nws tseem tabtom nkaum tom qab qhov kev ua txhaum, kom pom tseeb nws qhov kev tsis txaus siab, lawv hais tias, Kuv tsis kam tus menyuam, vim koj yog li ntawd. Txawm tias yog li ntawd, tus me nyuam tsis txhaum. Tus me nyuam tsis tau yug, nws nyuam qhuav pib ua hauv nws niam, thiab twb tau ua txhaum hauv kev tsim ntawm tsev neeg tsis tiav. Cov neeg yuav npaj tua txhua yam thiab txhua tus, yog lawv tsuas yog lawv tsis txhaum. Nws zoo li kev ua si "Mafia". Tus essence ntawm qhov kev ua si yog tias koj kiam txhua tus, koj coj ntawm koj suspicions, lawv hais tias, Kuv yog ntshiab li "tus me nyuam lub nroog Yeiuxalees," txawm tias koj yog ib tus "mafia" koj tus kheej.
Tom qab tag nrho, qhov no yog qhov teeb meem no, thiab qhov kawg ntawm zaj dab neeg no twb pom meej lawm. Nyob rau hauv ob peb lub xyoo nws realizes thiab yuav pw hauv lawv lub qhov rooj, tus neeg zov los yog tus ntxhais, tsuas pom nws tau ua ib qho kev zoo nkauj, los yog qub kev hlub, nrog nws tham, thiab piav qhov nws ruam. Tsuas yog cov lus nug tshwm sim, vim li cas lawv ho xav tau? Tom qab tag nrho, lawv ua zoo li ntawd. Tom qab tag nrho, nws yooj yim thaum xub thawj, thiab ces peb tau siv rau nws, thiab tom qab peb tsis xav hloov peb siv tau los siv. Nyob rau hauv txhua tus ntawm peb muaj ib tug poob ntawm conservatism. Ob peb xyoo lawv tsis xav ua kom muaj kev sib haum xeeb uas tsim los ntawm leej niam thiab nws tus ntxhais.
Li ntawd, lawv tau liam rau cov menyuam yaus uas tsis tau yug los? Yog vim li cas lawv thiaj li tsis muaj kev ywj pheej thaum yau, los yog hauv peb lub sijhawm, ib tus menyuam yaus uas muaj kev puv ntoob yog xam nrog lub neej nrog ib tus niam txiv, thiab tus kab mob kev sib raug zoo yog qhov tseeb tias tsev neeg muaj leej niam thiab leej txiv? Los yog nws tsim nyog tsim ib tsev neeg thiab muab yug rau cov me nyuam tsis yog thaum ntxov ntawm kev loj hlob, tab sis me ntsis tom qab? Thiab tseem, kuv ntseeg tias kev ua txij ua nkawm twb tsis tshua ruaj khov dua cov neeg paub tab. Tom qab tag nrho, nws twb txais los ntawm zej tsoom tias kev sib yuav ntawm ib tug me nyuam thaum ntxov txhais tau hais tias ib tug hluas ob peb tos rau ib tug me nyuam, thiab tag nrho vim hais tias peb yog nyob rau hauv ib tug hurry. Tsuas yog hauv cov neeg laus xwb yuav ua rau tus neeg ua txoj kev xav zoo, paub txog tag nrho lub luag haujlwm.
Kuv tij laug tau sib yuav thaum nws muaj 28 xyoos, thiab nws tus pojniam 26. Txhua tus tau hais tias lawv tau lig lawm. Thiab qhov twg nws maj maj? Tam sim no lawv muaj ib tug ntxhais zoo nkauj loj tuaj, thiab lawv zoo siab. Thiab kuv paub tseeb tias lawv txoj kev sib yuav yuav kav mus txog hnub nyoog uas muaj grey, vim hais tias ob tug neeg tau tsim cov kauj ruam yooj yim, paub txog lawv cov kev ua haujlwm. Thiab kuv xav ceeb toom txhua tus neeg, tsis txhob maj! Thiab peb yuav tiv thaiv, yog li ntawd, tag nrho cov teeb meem ntawm ib tsev neeg tsis tiav! Kev zoo siab yuav tsis khiav tawm ntawm koj mus rau lub sijhawm, tsis zoo li ib tug txiv neej ... Dhau lub sijhawm, nws tsuas yog ua dua thiab qab zib, zoo li ib tug caw ntawm xyoo laus.